My relationship with being disliked
I'd like to say I'm feeling a little anxious using "I" all the time, but it just feels like the right thing to do, because I don't see any other way to convey the message without breaking into using different words just for the sake of using different words. Maybe that's wrong, but anyway.
I like to stand up for myself, and that includes being determined to reject anything forced and preconceived in terms of beliefs. Thinking for myself opens up an entirely different world with more possibilities than you can imagine, because now you don't follow everybody but make your own path. But with empowerment in your own life you also get ostracized in the lives of others. It happened firsthand to me many times, and it breaks my heart every time, because all I'm doing is pursuing my goals. I don't even harm people, don't exploit them, but instead try to be benevolent.
People have laughed at me, refused to take me seriously, dismissed me, harbored negative projections towards me. I choose to deal with it by continuing to do what I do, because I view their dislike as a test. It has a purpose I'll be able to tell in the future.