I want to wait till I have kids
I think having kids in today's world is an ordeal that has to be justified financially and justified with parents' emotional stability. I would also add that the parents have to be skillful at something and always improving. Because when you have your child is when you basically copy and paste both parents' skills, habits, everything that the parents have been doing in their life onto the child.
Just to be clear, I don't really know how true to science that is, but I think all that is safe to assume and probably beneficial. You also have to understand that if you have an addiction, it may affect your child. So all addiction also has to leave your life before you have your child. It's like there is so much work involved in something people end up with and view as a circumstance. A kid is a project. You have to be prepared. Everything will be passed on, everything.
Maybe what I'm saying is common sense and something people already know but I wasn't thinking like that couple years ago. I thought it was just something to do whenever you think you have enough money and just because you value family and kids and think you'll love your child. Today I'm scared I'll never be enough.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not wasting my life away. I'm actually actively improving it like right now when I'm practicing writing. And I'm following whatever plan that I have to reach my career goals. I don't know. Sometimes I think I could've done things better. I wish I gained consciousness sooner haha.
But I think I want to have a kid in my late twenties. Right now I'm 22 so luckily I have some time.
A picture I took on my way from the store. Kinda reminds me of Utah but the vibe is different for sure.