I think reading Nietzsche when I was young changed me a bit
I read him a little bit to be honest, mostly Beyond Good and Evil, but I would be familiar with the Overman and the Will to Power after watching YouTube videos. I was pretty young so I didn't understand much and before him I was reading a book on other German philosophers. I was curious about philosophy, because I was trying to figure out the meaning or the purpose of life, and eventually I gave up looking for a deeper meaning and learned to only pay attention to what's in front of me, roughly speaking.
But at that time I was pretty devastated after reading Nietzsche, I don't even remember exactly how I felt, but his words rang true. I don't even remember exactly what words I'm talking about, I just remember the general feeling of hopelessness. I was maybe 14 and it got in the way of school a little bit. And since I couldn't find any absolute purpose anymore, I decided to simply pursue enjoyment out of this life. What helped at the time was believing that adopting the ideals of the Overman and the Will to Power would make me enjoy life more, because the reward of doing something risky when pursuing your goals is much greater than the reward of a normal life.
I ended up taking more risks, and they would all pay off one after another. Later on I became more spiritual, and now I feel like there is a safety net against failing completely and a guarantee that I will achieve more than I would hope to achieve at any given moment. That's because everything in my life just seems to fall into place, as if I was supposed to go down a certain road even if I perceived it as a failure at first.
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